LOL @ the title, right? i won't even post the link to that song, because i'm pretty sure you're already singing it to yourself...nasty. :p
on a more serious note: ever wish you had a remote control for your life with a big, huge PAUSE button smack-dab in the middle of it? definitely wishing for that right now. what with getting ready to move, preparing to teach for my church's Vacation Bible School, and being mommy to the greatest baby ever, as well as trying to get my mind ready for GRAD SCHOOL, my head is starting to spin, to say the least. so in an effort to alleviate some of the spinnage, i'm pretty much just going to do a mind dump. right here. right now. ready? me either. but let's go...
last year on father's day, i wished my daddy a happy one [of course], but i also wished one to the single mothers who also play the father's role in their child[ren]'s lives. a year later, i say "scratch that". i know i, for one, am no one's father. as i am a woman [clearly: i gave birth, hello!], it is anatomically impossible for me to be a father, as a father is male. i also realized that single mothers aren't fathers, because fathers [talking about present, good or trying-to-be good fathers and father figures only] are supposed to be true examples of a real man who takes on the responsibilities of a father because he knows that it's the right thing to do. i can't be the epitome of the type of man i want my daughter to be with, because i'm not a man. however, my daddy can and does that for her. my granpda can and does that for her. brothers at the church can and do that for her. hopefully, my brothers will be able to do that for her. not me. all i can do is point out these fine examples and pray that she takes them to heart. [happy father's day daddy & Old Ben Ivery!]
i'm scared that i may not be ready. ready for graduate-level coursework. ready for independent living with just me and Gabriela. ready for the "real world". what if i got it together to get in to grad school, only to fall apart once i start? and yes, i'm always praying, but self-doubt is a slick sucker that isn't so easily expelled from my brain. just gotta keep telling myself: "i can do this. i GOT this. i will do this. i HAVE to do this." and eventually, i'll believe that i can do it. then i'll just do it. then it will be done. speaking it into existence!!
a week late, but i can't say enough how blessed my daughter is. me too, of course, but do ya'll know that with all of her birthday gifts, she has the full summer wardrobe that i was just beginning to wonder how i would provide? i mean, anything i buy for her from now on will be in preparation for fall/winter! tell me God isn't great, and i'll instruct you to read every post in this blog, re-read this paragraph, and you'll be forced to change your mind...
i think that's all of the dumping i have to do for today. hopefully we'll see some more posting before next week, but right now i'm on the YOU of A campus, in a room on the third floor of a dorm with no elevators, preparing for a week of job shadowing to get an idea of my upcoming Graduate Assistant responsibilities. did i mention that i was on the THIRD floor of a DORM with NO ELEVATORS!?!? someone's going to be losing some weight this week...LOL. and how you know it's been FOREVER [like, three years] since i've lived in a dorm? i forgot bedding! i had to go buy some from good ole Wally World. must've thought i was staying in a hotel; one look in the shower snapped me back to reality! anywho, enough about the mundane activities of my day. except for this: i'm here WITHOUT my Punkin!!! so it'll be interesting to see how we BOTH act during this week...mmk, bye bye now!
-love always, elle&gee-
6.19.2011
6.10.2011
"big things poppin', and little things stoppin'..."
yeeeaaah, so i'm way super late on plenty of things. BUT, the important thing is that i'm finally getting around to posting! "better late than never", that's my motto...lol. anywho, we have a lot of "big things poppin'" right now, so prepare for a lot of reading. let's begin with...
WE'RE MOVING OUT!! last Friday, Gee, my parents and i went up to Fayetteville in search of living space and childcare, and got to check *both* of off my list! i did some internet research on both apartments and daycares, so i already had a number one preference for both. and after visiting both the complex and the daycare, i was pleased with both, and put down a deposit on both! so i'll be going back up in mid-July to sign my lease and fill out all of the paperwork for Gee to start daycare! aaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ya'll, excited isn't EVEN the word. finally, after 4 years in dorms and a sorority house, and 1 year at home, i get to live in an apartment! with my own room! and me & Gee not living on top of each other anymore! omgee...ya'll have no idea! anyway, enough about that [but did i mention that Gee will have her own ROOM!?]. on to...
1ST YEAR G*DAY!!! my babygirl is a baby, no more! as of today, June 10th, she is officially a ONE year old Toddler! can you believe it? i know i can't... it seems like just days ago that i was waddling into the Dr.'s office and being told that it was baby time! wow. time really does fly, as if i haven't been cliche enough today [lol]. however, i embrace the passage of time. some people mourn the days when their children were immobile and totally dependent on them. um, not me!! while yes, it was tiresome to keep tabs on a little one who loves to bang on the TV and put everything she sees in her mouth [except for the things that are actually meant for her to chew on!], but i don't have to hold her cup now. she can feed herself. when she gets to walking a bit better, i'll be relieved from hauling her heavy little self around [the doctor said she was only 18lbs8oz. but i don't believe it for a second...]. her personality and intuitiveness are amazing to observe; newborns and young infants are pretty boring, if you ask me. pretty to look at, yes. but still boring. so bring on toddlerhood, lil' mama. i'm pretty sure she's giving me sneak peeks of the Terrible Twos already, but as my mother loves to remind me, i'm only getting what i gave her! LOL, oh well! for the last update, let's....
PARTY! rather, partieS. Gee had her first 1st birthday party down here, under a pavilion in the park [basically]. it was a small, intimate affair, attended only by close family and friends [although one of her daycare buddies did stop by for a few minutes, which was nice]. we had my famous rainbow cupcakes [lol], and i made a large rainbow cupcake for Gee to eat/play in, which was hilarious to watch. not so hilarious to clean up, but still totally worth it. she got some great gifts, too. since i'm too lazy to list them or post pics here, check them out on Facebook. if we're not friends, shoot me a message so i can add you. i don't let people add me because there are some strange folks lurking on FB, nah'mean? anyway, we're having Gee's second 1st birthday party tomorrow in Little Rock, so that we can get out of the house, and so that our friends from the northern part of the state don't have to drive as far to celebrate with us. i'll do my best not to let a week pass before i tell ya'll about it. ;) until next time!
-love elle&BIGGIRL!gee-
WE'RE MOVING OUT!! last Friday, Gee, my parents and i went up to Fayetteville in search of living space and childcare, and got to check *both* of off my list! i did some internet research on both apartments and daycares, so i already had a number one preference for both. and after visiting both the complex and the daycare, i was pleased with both, and put down a deposit on both! so i'll be going back up in mid-July to sign my lease and fill out all of the paperwork for Gee to start daycare! aaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ya'll, excited isn't EVEN the word. finally, after 4 years in dorms and a sorority house, and 1 year at home, i get to live in an apartment! with my own room! and me & Gee not living on top of each other anymore! omgee...ya'll have no idea! anyway, enough about that [but did i mention that Gee will have her own ROOM!?]. on to...
1ST YEAR G*DAY!!! my babygirl is a baby, no more! as of today, June 10th, she is officially a ONE year old Toddler! can you believe it? i know i can't... it seems like just days ago that i was waddling into the Dr.'s office and being told that it was baby time! wow. time really does fly, as if i haven't been cliche enough today [lol]. however, i embrace the passage of time. some people mourn the days when their children were immobile and totally dependent on them. um, not me!! while yes, it was tiresome to keep tabs on a little one who loves to bang on the TV and put everything she sees in her mouth [except for the things that are actually meant for her to chew on!], but i don't have to hold her cup now. she can feed herself. when she gets to walking a bit better, i'll be relieved from hauling her heavy little self around [the doctor said she was only 18lbs8oz. but i don't believe it for a second...]. her personality and intuitiveness are amazing to observe; newborns and young infants are pretty boring, if you ask me. pretty to look at, yes. but still boring. so bring on toddlerhood, lil' mama. i'm pretty sure she's giving me sneak peeks of the Terrible Twos already, but as my mother loves to remind me, i'm only getting what i gave her! LOL, oh well! for the last update, let's....
PARTY! rather, partieS. Gee had her first 1st birthday party down here, under a pavilion in the park [basically]. it was a small, intimate affair, attended only by close family and friends [although one of her daycare buddies did stop by for a few minutes, which was nice]. we had my famous rainbow cupcakes [lol], and i made a large rainbow cupcake for Gee to eat/play in, which was hilarious to watch. not so hilarious to clean up, but still totally worth it. she got some great gifts, too. since i'm too lazy to list them or post pics here, check them out on Facebook. if we're not friends, shoot me a message so i can add you. i don't let people add me because there are some strange folks lurking on FB, nah'mean? anyway, we're having Gee's second 1st birthday party tomorrow in Little Rock, so that we can get out of the house, and so that our friends from the northern part of the state don't have to drive as far to celebrate with us. i'll do my best not to let a week pass before i tell ya'll about it. ;) until next time!
-love elle&BIGGIRL!gee-
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